I just want to be me

[Sarah]

We all do it, I'm sure. Then again, maybe it's just me. I have a blog, that I keep for my family and friends overseas. And my friends here, who don't see me very often. The thing is, I have to censor myself, because I feel like I can't be the 'real' me. I have to fit into this mold of who I 'should' be, and that means I can't post about real, honest stuff, and how I feel about said real, honest stuff. Like how sick to death I am of peeing myself everytime I sneeze. Or how I find flatulence really funny. No, I have to pretend to be mortified by all things improper. Like the word "bum", for instance. My daughter has started saying it, and I think it's pretty darn cute. But my oh-so-proper mother-in-law thinks it's a rude word. I don't want to start a war over it, but the thing is, she had her opportunity to pass on her values and judgements to her own children. It's my turn to be a parent. I grew up in a family where fart jokes were not only appreciated, but encouraged. Maybe that makes me uncouth, but it's who I am. I don't take myself so seriously, especially after my dad passed away. I just want a place where I can write honestly about stuff that matters to me, whether it's good, bad, ugly or improper. Not really offensive, but honest. Does anyone else out there have this same dilemma?

[Crystal]

I do think about it but choose to say what I want anyway...in a way that is me. I know it is hard to worry about backlash but what's the point of having a blog if you have to pretend to be someone you aren't you know? I have found that the more real I am, the more people enjoy the blog. :)

[Sarah]

*sigh* I'm working on it, but the 'people pleasing' aspect of my personality is hard to shed after 33 years. Still though, I think you're right - I'm just not ready to 'out' myself yet. Hopeful that I will be someday, but not ready yet. Thanks for commenting!

[Alicia]

I'm just starting to come out of that shell. It makes me very self conscious to know that my grandparents are looking at my blog to catch up on me and my family. But phooey on it; they'll love me even if I am slightly inappropriate sometimes. And I'm blogging to have fun, not to impress everybody. (now watch me back my words up with action, lol)

[Lalena]

I just wrote about this!! Its time to embrace who we are. You go girl!
http://freedomwithoutfear.blogspot.com/2008/05/my-brain-has-begun-thinking-in-blog.html